Of Course...

So now I'm frustrated. When we went to visit DuPont they told us that our daughter would be able to go into the NICU when we were there to see Gavin. My due date never changed so I assumed that would still be the case once he was born. 

So now I'm hearing that because it is flu season they aren't allowing children under 10 (besides patients) in the hospital to visit. And that means that Ayla will probably not be able to see her little brother until he is out of the hospital. And who knows how long that will be. 

She has been so excited to meet Gavin and she talks about him all of the time. She grabs my belly, hugs him, and tells him she loves him. And now instead of only having to wait only a few days after he is born, she might have to wait weeks.  I just think that's completely crazy for me to not let my children even meet each other for such a long period of time. 

And also, what if we are still in the hospital for Christmas?? Am I supposed to split my time between my two kids and not get to see them together on the holiday. I was upset that we may have to spend Christmas in the hospital but I figured that we'd at least all be together. Now I find out that we might not even be allowed to be together for our first Christmas as a family of four? Seriously? Because things aren't stressful enough let's add this to my list. 

I have the fetal coordinator double checking for me, but I doubt anything will allow me to have Ayla in the hospital, even if she has her flu shot. I am on the verge of tears and I just wish that ONE THING would be easy.

My mood today: