Stressing Out

Okay, I am having a slight freakout day today. My due date is less than 5 weeks away from today and I feel so unprepared for Gavin's arrival.

We still don't know when he will be born. My husband is planning on taking leave from work for a little bit once Gavin is born and his schedules are made 3 or more weeks in advance. We told the Maternal Fetal Medicine doctors this at our appointment almost two weeks ago and they said they'd get back to us last week with a date so we could plan accordingly. It wouldn't be such a huge deal if Jeremy could just get off of work, but he needs to know in advance and they know this. I don't think it should be so difficult to get an answer from the doctors about a c-section date. 

I have no clue where everyone in our little family will be once Gavin is born. I know that I will be in the hospital obviously, but we don't yet have a plan for my husband and daughter. I have never been away from her for a night let alone more that two hours at a time, and I am really not looking forward to not being with her for multiple nights in a row. We don't know if she will be with Jeremy or if she will be staying with my parents overnight. I don't know if she will be nearby at maybe a hotel (I doubt that will happen) or if she will be at home which is over an hour and a half drive away from me. MAJOR AXIETY OVER HERE. 

I know we probably won't be home for Christmas. I have been thinking about it logically and if I do have my c-section the first weekday after I am 39 weeks it will be December 9th. So that leaves 16 days until Christmas. Unless he does extraordinarily well I doubt we will be home before then. So we will have to have Christmas in the Ronald McDonald House/Hospital. I don't know how we are going to make it work. We will be nowhere near most of our family and not only that, we won't really be able to decorate at all. I don't know how we are going to make it feel like Christmas for Gavin but more for Ayla. She knows what Christmas is and I don't want to take anything away from her. 

I am very much stressing out. I have so many things unknown and I just wish that I had all of the answers. I will just try to relax as best I can. On a positive note, we have been getting things ready at home for Gavin. Almost all of his clothing is washed, his pack and play is set up, we got the baby swing and glider ready, we bought a diaper bag and a hoppy cover, and we got Gavin's carseat and base installed in the car! And I have about 90% of my Christmas shopping done and more than half of it wrapped already!

I guess it's just time to celebrate the little tasks that have been accomplished and hope that everything else will fall into place. Also, here's an absolutely adorable picture of Ayla snuggling with Baby Gavin. One of the things that makes me happiest is my daughter loving Gavin so much before he is even born.